Merry Christmas
Current mood: bouncy

 I prefer Yule myself but of course the kids like Christmas best. LOL What kid wouldn't? Christmas these days is celebrated by showering people with gifts and that isn't the way that I celebrate Yule. Most people that I know that celebrate Yule don't celebrate it with the overspending most commonly seen with Christmas.

 This brings me to my point. Isn't Christmas a religious holiday? If the reason to celebrate the season is the birth of Christ then where does all this gift giving come in? How does a religious holiday turn into an excuse to spend $1000 on useless crap for one kid that less than a month later can't even remember what they got from whom? Why would a religious holiday turn into a competition of who can buy the most for whom? I honestly wonder if people that profess to celebrate Christmas as a religious holiday see the truth of what most people do. Christmas is as a whole a retail holiday. What do children learn or gain from this?

 My personal opinion is that all kids are really learning these days is the same 365 days a year. They learn to be selfish, greedy, materialistic and down right brats. I'm not on some "not my kid" kick. Mine are that way too to a point. Since we have a serious lack of money the majority of the time and always have they have never been quite so spoiled. $100 is plenty to spend on one child for a birthday or Christmas in my world. They are lucky and for the most part are gratefull for what they get. I have never understood the reasoning for spending $500-$1000 on gifts for any one child. What do they gain from that that couldn't be accomplished with far less?

 Why is it easier for most people to throw money at things than time and energy? I find it far less rewarding to spend money on my children than to spend time with them. I understand how happy children get from opening gifts and how good it feels to give your kids what they have been wanting but it is far more meaningfull to spend time with them. Have a family day filled with activities, crafts, games, movies, talking, laughing and just being together for a change. Isn't that what you remember most from childhood? I know that I do. I couldn't tell you what I got for birthdays or Christmas' from 5 years ago but I can remember clearly going to the river, having a picnic, going to the park, seeing a movie or going for a drive with my family.

 This Christmas I have spent $0 on my kids. Gabby got a book that I got for free from online, Cody got a sword that was a gift to me years ago that he has wanted for years and Matty is going to get to help me make her present. Matt, Cody, Gabby and I are at my mom's and Matty is at Matt's sister's house. Mom is making cookies with the kids and they are having a blast with her. Matt is watching TV and I am typing away on the computer for a while. Later today we will do more together but for right now the kids are busy with Granny. Matty will be home on Thursday and we will continue to celebrate Christmas a bit more. This weekend mom is going to give the kids their things from her and we are going to have a big dinner. Once that is done I am hoping that Christmas will finally be over. LOL

Happy holidays!

~Aidan

Hi all,

 I have a little request for you if you have the time. I have been told that the link to my MySpace doesn't work and people can't get to my photos on there. What I am asking is if you will pay me a visit there and see if the link works for you and if you can acess my photos so I will know if they are full of it or not. Oh yea and the obvious please let me know if it works. LOL I am a dingbat today. Here's the link www.myspace.com/aidan_the_wicked_witch

 Ok so onto my usual ranting and raving like an idiot. LOL As everyone knows from reading this blog I have been having marital problems. It has been that way for years and has pretty much come to a head as of late. My husband and I have been at this point for a while and are simply making each other miserable.

 For a long time now I have been thinking that we would be better off apart rather than together and he has recently voiced the same opinion. As of now it is his opinion that after the holidays we should both move seperately. I can't argue with him there as I have been thinking it even if I didn't voice it.

 My idea of marriage is that two people come together to become something better than they are apart and we don't seem to be able to do that. We are worse together than we ever have been as idividuals. We don't exactly make eachother happy either. This isn't to say things are definately over between us but I do agree that some time apart wouldn't hurt.

 I'm not looking for sympathy. I'm really not hurt by this. The thing that will hurt me will be the kids reaction to it but it is far better than he and I staying together and being miserable. The kids know we aren't happy and they are happier when he and I are with them alone instead of me, him and them. I know that they won't really understand or like it and it will be an adjustment for them but I am confident that regardless of what happens they will be ok.

 Matt says he will probably stay with his sister or his mother untill he gets himself together and that he wants to see the kids as much as he can. His suggestion to me was everyother weekend. I am hopefull that we can do this like two adults instead of falling into the nastiness I see so often in couples. Keep your fingers crossed for me.

Thanks,

Aidan

BTW Please let me know if you get time to try that link and if it works! Thanks!!!

 Is it really December? I know that is what my calendar says but I'm not believing it. It was bad enough that at Thanksgiving I was running around in a sleveless dress and was warm enough to go for a walk like that but here it is December and I have had all the windows open and the doors too. What gives?

 I'm a very cold natured person so it's not that I'm complaining that much. True we live in the south and it doesn't get really cold but to be this warm is still strange. I saw on the news that cold weather is coming later on in the weekend but damn! I'm always cool even in the summer and here I am with my Christmas tree up and sweating while I mop. LOL

 ~Aidan

 Do I really believe that? Oh hell who knows....

 At any rate on the 10th Jackie and Justin moved out. I had a feeling that it wouldn't last long but I didn't give voice to that because it's just what it is and nothing more.

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 There is a girl that...

Gives till it hurts and still keeps giving, sits by the phone to wait on calls that never comes, listens to promises that are always broken, rearanges her life for friends, always gets left in the dust, expects her family to get along, wants for more than she'll ever get, deserves better from people, puts herself through bullshit in order to help others, wants to be drama free, always tries to think before she speaks, puts herself last in line for all things, and then routinely gets shit on by the very people that she does things for. Oh and let us not forget that when she shows a flaw or does something stupid nobody will let it go or let her live it down even when they are doing the very same thing.

 Well, this girl........

Is sick and fucking tired of getting taken advantage of and getting left behind, is pissed off, is going to get more or leave these people behind, is going to look out for herself and her kids and say screw everybody else. No more being a doormat or a yo-yo!

 This girl thinks........

GROW THE FUCK UP!!!! Get along or get gone, do what I say or get out of my way, be there 100% or not at all, if you can't be part of the solution then you are part of the problem, people in glass houses shouldn't throw stones, the he said she said bullshit needs to stop, people should learn not to make someone else's problem their problem, stop making excuses for what you do or how you feel.

 This girl is gonna........

Do what she wants and do it when she wants, look out for #1 for a damn change, be the bitch she was meant to be, tell you the 100% truth so don't ask if you don't want to know.

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 Yep I have had a bad lifetime. LOL Sorry if anybody gets their feelings hurt or thinks I'm talking about them. Truth be told if you think I'm talking about you there is probably some guilt there so I more than likely am talking about you. Don't ask if you don't want to know.

Love and Happy Days,

Aidan

   Ok so it has been forever since I have actually posted much of anything and I decided that I would start again now. Although I have moved most of my energy onto Myspace, I was missing my Bravenet blog. Anytime you want you can visit me on MySpace at http://www.myspace.com/aidan_the_wicked_witch and I will probably get back to you quicker than on here. At any rate that is where all my pictures and the like have been going. So now onto my rant for the day.

   An update on the ever missing Lawry is much overdue so here it is. Go ahead and gasp while you read. Lawry is engaged and pregnant with a little boy. She is due on January 21, 2008. Lawry and her fiancé have been together about as long as she has been pregnant and no I’m not going to venture my opinion into any of that. She moved with Steve and I don’t hear from her much anymore. Just my own personal gripe here but since she moved off with him it has been time for her to forget her friend that stood by her through all her bullshit. Ok end of gripe. I am terribly happy for her if she is truly happy. That fact hasn’t been proven to me as of yet though. The baby is healthy and so is she as far as I know so that is what is really important.

ROFLMAO
Current mood: amused

 And the drama continues. I got a reply to the nasty email that Jackie shot off. Awe damn no email that was meant for me. Boo Hoo! Ok so in all reality I know that the email was really meant for me to see. All info slamming her back. *Gasp* As if I couldn't have seen that one coming. Hell, I have been looking for it. I wasn't dissapointed either. It was of course full of slams and things that I guess I wasn't supossed to know. I can't say that there was anything in there that I didn't know or didn't know wasn't true. Silly people don't think that I have kept tabs on &/or knew this from experience or because I was told from the person that it concerned.

 Oh ouch that I need my friend to help me keep my sanity. Gee she probably did tell him that and considering the exact thing came out of my mouth to her ear I don't know what that was supposed to accomplish. Boo Hoo! My husband is a loud mouth, bullshits people a good deal and hasn't been working for a good number of months. As far as I knew that was common knowledge. Everyone that I know knows that. Go ahead and try to stir up drama lots of people have tried and it doesn't work. Our family has flaws and we all know it. It would be nice to be perfect but that doesn't happen in reality. Guess what, my hubby and I have even had major problems that for a lot of people would have ended in divorce but it didn't. We work things out that can be changed and accept what can't be changed. That is why this family has worked and will continue to work. So what if once in a while we get pissed off and run off at the mouth. Try to pretend that you don't if it makes you feel better.

 The desired effect of this email won't be seen because it won't happen. It won't cause drama and neither would any of the good old he said she said bullshit. It will take a lot more to mess things up in this family so anyone that wants to had better try a hell of a lot harder than talking shit, sending emails or trying to point out anyone's sins from the past. There was no other possible purpose for that email but the result isn't on it's way. My family and all the people in it are better than that. So sorry but it's true better people have tried to start shit and it hasn't worked.

Saturday, November 03, 2007

Drama, drama, drama ROFLMAO Current mood: indescribable  Now almost a month ago my oldest and dearest friend & her son moved in with my family. We have had no real trouble with adjustments even with the kids. Ok so the boys like to get into figurative pissing contests but even that hasn't been that bad. Now all of a sudden one of Jackie's so-called friends has decided that he should stir up drama not only at her work but here at this house. Anyone that knows me even remotely knows that I will not tolerate this. I don't know this person enough to believe him over my 18 month old and he thinks he can talk a little junk over the net in the guise of caring about her. ROFLMAO I so think not. Below is a series of emails and a blog/bulletin post I think you will find amusing. This should explain it all. The first email sent by Tony http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=51774804...   Date: Nov 2, 2007 7:59 AM Flag as Spam or Report Abuse [ ? ] Date Sent: 11/2/2007 4:59:00 AM Body: Aidan, This is really hard for me to do. However, I think you should know. Ms, Goodman called me in the middle of the night last night. She was looking for Jackie, who told her that she was working nights doing payroll. I may be totally off base here, but, I'm assuming that because she needs a car to get back and forth, she has told you the same thing. Jackie has been terminated for not coming to work for the last 2 weeks. I have not seen or heard from her, either. I don't think it takes a rocket scientist to figure out where she has been spending her nights. I know your loyalties are to her and when she finds out that I contacted you, she may seek some type of revenge on me. I hope that you can keep this message between us. I just don't want to see good people who have taken her in to help her start her new life get used and screwed by her. She can't start her new life unless she leaves the old destructive one. This was supposed to be a springboard for her to get her own place and start living her life the way she is supposed to live it. I care about her deeply, and want to see her succeed in any endeaver she takes on. If you want to talk about it give me a call 803-209-6086. Tony  Can I laugh now or should I wait? Why is this so funny you might ask. Well first off it is incorrect and I know this for a fact. Secondly did he really think that I would keep this to myself? Those of you that know me know the answer to that one. I hadn't even opened the damn email before I called Jackie into the room. I also let her reply first from my account since she was having trouble getting into hers. Someone changed her password and I wonder who that would have been. Understandably she was pissed so she responded with this email... Date: Nov 2, 2007 11:27 PM Flag as Spam or Report Abuse [ ? ]   Subject:  RE: Jackie Body:  look dumb ass the thing about this is 1st: u r fucked... I have already spken to jim and whether u haav or nt the fact of the matter is that u have brken the law u drunk and ignorant sick ass fucker...... u seem to forget that the last time I seen u I had 2 kids n the car who witnessed ur jealous rage ........ about guy!!! 1 of which is old enuff to testify agaist u in court that ur sexual harrasment and jealousy lead to ur bull shit each day at work. tony..... u r the same piece of shit that u hav always been. and the fact of the matter is: u sat in my home laughing and carring on that u have no clue what u r doing there.... if I am not working there........ u wont b there long either... u have no idea what the fuck u r doin there....... u r a failure.. in perwsonal life and bussiness,..... that is y r single... u looked like an ass whil I was outa work tony.... u r feeling like a failure... much like the way that u looked in ur car: what did I do wrong, I love u I just wanted 1 night with u before Guy......... ur a big baby an u didnt get ur way and u think that this is gonna get me back ur an idiot.... and apparent not familar with federal law as I have always warned u..... by federal law: u cant disclose any info about my employment to anyone!! under and situation or circumstances......... u hav violated that law and because of that I am calling an attorney: how do u think that jims gonna think about that when he gets a call: u r nothing never had anything and never been anything..... and u never will: u wouldnt have a house had it not ben 4 me: u didnt even know how to get the inspection on the house of the electrical info u stupid fucker..... and if u think that a friend of mine would be interesting in calling ur yankee ass ur a idiot!!! go ahead and step up pup..... call me again, email me or mine again: I am done with u and everything about u... u think that ur spiteful and vindictive behaviors have accomplished nothing except ammunition 4 me: I have nothin but time on my hands and u have the oppertunity to watch over ur shoulder 4 the rest of ur life! this is no threat... this is the finality of the situation: keep on keeping on TONY........ u have no friends and the fact is THIS IS Y!!!!! u r a child and when u dnt gety ur way: "screw u guys Im ging home...." u need a fuckin helmet.. 2 protect the one functional brian cell from further damage!!!!! uve not hurt me in any way tony.....I offer u the oppertunity to save urself.... step off!!!!! I dont wanna b with u and this is what ur rationality of the situation is.... I cant have her: I wanna take her from whoever and what ever else... what ever has gone on between u an I is u an I y u wanna fuck with my people!?!?!?!?!?!? because ur a dumb ass..... ur a drunk and u r a drug addict and the fact of the matter is welcome u go to atlant an get all coked up...... I DONT!!! u r the 1 who wanted me to go with....some how in that lil mind of urs u decided to take the chance: b with me or Ill ruin u. u moved there I truely belived with the thought that I OULD NBEED THAT JOB SO BADLY ID come stay wit you and something wood come of it..... wrong: Id rather b unemployed. id rather live under a bridge and u couldnt get that..... how do u think that I felt daily having to listen to the desperation of ur voice I NEED U I WANT YOU I LOVE YOU..... trying to teach u something about work...... what ever. u cant leave well enuff alone: u will learn. ur a sorry mother fucker and jim will see that son enuff too.. in pics I HAVE OF U AND DAVID...... gettin HIGH from ur Co. phone.... ur a foolish man and now ur fucked dont contact either of us again. go to hell or continue with this and be put there.  She went the extra step after and posted a blog and then copied it to her bulletins... catch up on TONY THE CABBIE!! Current mood: amused Category: fed up wit ur shit.... Writing and Poetry a story abut TONY THE CABBIE: 106.5's radio personality from late 90s MELROSE MINUTE AND SOPRANOS RECAP: he's a mans.....man... literally. and he can be yours for $19.95 keeps nickels in the dash. gives new minute to TRYON / TRADE........ he should be trading on tryon.   remember last weekend win u drove me an the kids to charlotte>? damn shame win a 9 year old says: "Mommy if I ever act like that in front a girl shoot me... he should have a boyfriend to keep him in line......" u can email who ever u wanna the fact is that your only making an ass of yourself and proving to the world what a fucking punk u r....... go ahead and step outtta the closet man: the crystal shop wants the fucking doors back...... now: I aint saying your gay but I believe you'd hold a dick in your mouth till it goes soft...... oh, never mind: know that for a fact an your shrink knows all bout it right?!?!?!? little too late ben by chasers lately they r accepting applications: "N THE REAR" check it out.... I've never in all my life seen such shit: grown ass man sitting in a car in front of two kids an a girl who he keeps telling: " LOVE U I NEED U AND CANT LIVE WITHOUT u...." banging your head against the god damn steering wheel: "WHERE DID I GO WRONG..." well....if u couldn't see for yourself that shit was the problem u really got issues cause a 12 year old and 9 year old sure as hell pointed it out to the world............ if I wanted a girl, Id be like your wife an take up eating pussy too. by the way speaking of your ex wife.....I just remembered  u freaking out about "Guy fucking sue and jeanette".  what hurt u the most about my relationship with Guy....... the fact that I didn't want your sorry ass or the fact that this is the third time HE took a bitch from u?!?!? ********4th of July in case you've blocked it from your memory: your wife and her sister:at least Im not the only one reading this that knows how his dick tastes, although you wont ever know 1st hand.......... u get the sloppy seconds: just like u did  with Jeannette.............. it took him an hour and u 7 years!?!?!?! I'll give you a hint: SIZE DOES MATTER DUMB FUCK and win u got it u got it,..... *******FYI: u don't! but u know that: hell, at puberty you thought you had a hair: till you pissed out of it.......... u wanted my attention: u got it now: may have bit off more than u can chew...... u'll get all the attention u can handle frm this one buddy: phone s is now public info...... u sent it out to the wrong girl.......... how u gonna impress a chick win u ask her to pick out your close an 4get to put away the baby oil and nut rag before she gets there. and you can gloat about your conquests with your ex's sister all you want the reality of that was: she had 2 b drunk 2 g thru wit it: keep from laughing n falling off the bed: she was intrigued to see if it was as small as sue said: I can vouch for you: IT IS... no need 4 anyone else to test the waters.. dont watse your time ladies. piss poor excuse of a dick win u have to use the finger condoms from the hospital as far as hacking into my yahoo and myspace:its called myspace 4 a reason...... its MY SPACE BITCH!!!!!!</P> but u never could follow simple instructions: hence the lack of an active sex life....y your wife now eats pussy: funny Jeannette caught the gay too didnt she?  guess u actually DO need the polock's  sex manual.....4 ur benefit I have enclosed it below: "IN, OUT: REPEAT !".......... u fuckin WAP!!! u may have got it....but u damn sure couldn't keep it could u bitch boy!?!?!? then again: that's the story of your life aint it ???? youd fuck up a wet dream and then ud  tell every body... cause your too fucking stupid to realize we aint laughing wit u we r laughing at u !!! guess I'll go ahead and explain to the chicks: go ahead an: finger him... he has to be a bitch to act like this. U know, ur always wondering  y u cant find a chick...... U hang out with all lesbians...Even I can see thru that smoke screen.... what were u doing waitin on one of their fairy friends to force you into outting yourself!?!? no need to hide anymore: I'll help EVERYONE SEE YOUR TRUE COLORS!  Perhaps more than I would have done. LOL Perhaps not.  Once she was done venting on the computer I went to work with my reply to the email... Tony, First off I hope it was hard for you because you are either just trying to make her life a living hell or you truly don't know reality. Mrs. Goodman, my mother, wasn't the one that called you. My husband, Matt, called from her home number and nobody answered the phone. My mother didn't say that Jackie told her that she was working nights doing payroll. She said that she understood that Jackie had gone in there one night to do payroll. Yes you are totally off base. Jackie hasn't told me any such thing and what she does one evening a week isn't really my business. She is a grown woman and I'm not her mother. Not that she would need to tell me where she was since she has either been at my house with me, my husband and the kids or at my mother & Guy's house with the both of them. I have known where she's been and who she's been with out of courtesy and out of the fact that she hasn't been away from here without someone. As if any of that is your business to begin with. She has been sick as has the rest of my house but then I know full well that she told you that since I was sitting beside her when you were whining like a toddler at her through the phone. You have a pretty destinctive voice and speach pattern so I doubt that it was some elaborate cover up. I do hope that you realize that your behavior in telling me that she has been terminated is completely unproffesional and unacceptable. Hasn't anyone explained employment laws to you? You can not do that nor tell anyone the reason regardless. Sounds like you are handing Jackie a lawsuit to own Carolina Cargo. You have now given that information to my mother and to me. What was the purpose and what do you stand to gain from this? While this was obviously done on company time I hope for your sake and your employer that Jackie is much kinder to you than I would be. I would suggest that you tread a little more carefully as to what you say, whom you say it to and have a little proof to go along with your allegations. One of these days this sort of behavior will bite you in the rear. Oh and as to keeping this to myself you obviously know the answer to that now but just so you know my email on MySpace is public domain in this house. I have nothing to hide from my family. ~Aidan  I could have been ugly about it but I decided not to be. I was far too amused by everything and the prospect that I have tons of places to post this and see what kind of reaction that I get from my dear friends. I am sure that at least a few will find this as amusing as I have.  I have known Jackie since I was 2 years old do you really think someone I don't know could cause me to have a problem with her? Please do not think that you can safely try to stir up drama about one of my friends and I will keep it secret for you. DUH! The first person I am saying anything about it to is my friend! As soon as I know that you are up to something they will know. Can someone hand this boy a clue!