Sunday, July 06, 2008

Vampires do walk among you Current mood: thoughtful  No I'm not speaking of those supernatural beings that prowl the night seeking the blood of some innocent virgin. LOL Nor am I referring to those flesh and blood people who desire to become something more than themselves and attach themselves to wearing dark colors, claim to drink blood or the like. What I am talking about we have all experienced and most likely been ourselves at one time or another. A psychic vampire is a very real thing. I do hope that the use of the word psychic doesn't conjure visions of a gypsy fortune teller for that is far from what I am trying to convey.  A psychic vampire can be anyone, from anywhere, at anytime. You can find a ton of information on the subject if you look. For a lot of people it would be a subject that would instantly be blown off because of the trend for this information to include the use of words that most find laughable or they have a misconception of the subject matter in general. In general these information sources tend to focus on the stealing of energy by use of auras. It has been my experience that at this point is when most people smile and discount any further information. I'm sure that for some people this is just due to be close minded but for most I believe it is a misunderstanding of what an aura is. Most people jump to the conclusion that what the author is referring to is a colorful blob surrounding a person that isn't seen with the naked eye but to the contrary when you read further into most articles you will find that what the author meant was the energy field that surrounds living things. I recall learning about this in science class as a child. Once there is a better understanding of what the author meant I have found that more people are willing to keep reading with an open mind.  This energy field or aura is strongest in a living thing that is healthy. There have been studies done on this that have supported this conclusion. Those living things that are at a less healthy point have less of an aura. If we can agree on this then you can continue to follow my point. Your mental health/well being is connected to your physical health/well being and that is connected to your aura and this will bring me to my point.  I won't go into the theory of someone purposely setting out to "feed" off of another person's aura. That information is widely available and can all too easily fall into the category of legend and theory. I don't know of a truly credible source that I can site on any study done that could verify this so I won't represent it as fact. I know that there are people that claim to have proven this and people that claim to be able to prove that they can do this themselves but isn't there always someone who says this regardless of what the issue is?  What I am speaking of are the people that seem to benefit physically and emotionally from draining another person in a very real way. I'm sure that we have all known someone that has done this at least once if we don't know someone at this very moment that seems to live this way. Those people that use someone else's energy greedily, those that constantly have to have drama going on around them and live with constant chaos. The friend or relative that only calls when they need something, those people that make you feel so totally drained just by their presence that it's almost unbelievable. We have all at times drained someone almost to the very last drop and this will undoubtably happen to us a few times in our lives. If you have any doubts just think of your poor mother. LOL Seriously you can spot these people very easily in my opinion. They create drama for others constantly and misery for others seems to make them their best. Unlike the rest of us that are saddened and stressed by drama that unfolds for our loved ones these people seem to thrive off of it and when it is absent they seem to wither.  I do hold to my idea that in most cases these people don't mean to be this way, don't see it and wouldn't want to be like that. I don't believe that it is an intentional act but yet a subconcious one that for the habitual vampire is probably started in childhood. Regardless of your relationship to these people it always seems that it is hard to get away from them. Much like their fictional counter parts they sink their fangs in deeply. As unfortunate as it is I don't believe that the majority of them will ever be more than what they are or ever truly happy. When it comes to someone like that you have to remember to stay gaurded emotionally as well as physically.  You make yourself the victim. If you allow yourself to be pulled into drama after drama, allow these people to make even a few moments of your day miserable, or allow them too easy of an access to you emotionally then they will take advantage of it. Regardless of who someone is to you, if they seem their happiest when you are at your worst they don't deserve you. You should never allow anyone to have that sort of negative influence over you.   *Just as a footnote: I'm not talking about anybody in particular. I read an article and wanted to toss my 2 cents in on here.

Merry Christmas
Current mood: bouncy

 I prefer Yule myself but of course the kids like Christmas best. LOL What kid wouldn't? Christmas these days is celebrated by showering people with gifts and that isn't the way that I celebrate Yule. Most people that I know that celebrate Yule don't celebrate it with the overspending most commonly seen with Christmas.

 This brings me to my point. Isn't Christmas a religious holiday? If the reason to celebrate the season is the birth of Christ then where does all this gift giving come in? How does a religious holiday turn into an excuse to spend $1000 on useless crap for one kid that less than a month later can't even remember what they got from whom? Why would a religious holiday turn into a competition of who can buy the most for whom? I honestly wonder if people that profess to celebrate Christmas as a religious holiday see the truth of what most people do. Christmas is as a whole a retail holiday. What do children learn or gain from this?

 My personal opinion is that all kids are really learning these days is the same 365 days a year. They learn to be selfish, greedy, materialistic and down right brats. I'm not on some "not my kid" kick. Mine are that way too to a point. Since we have a serious lack of money the majority of the time and always have they have never been quite so spoiled. $100 is plenty to spend on one child for a birthday or Christmas in my world. They are lucky and for the most part are gratefull for what they get. I have never understood the reasoning for spending $500-$1000 on gifts for any one child. What do they gain from that that couldn't be accomplished with far less?

 Why is it easier for most people to throw money at things than time and energy? I find it far less rewarding to spend money on my children than to spend time with them. I understand how happy children get from opening gifts and how good it feels to give your kids what they have been wanting but it is far more meaningfull to spend time with them. Have a family day filled with activities, crafts, games, movies, talking, laughing and just being together for a change. Isn't that what you remember most from childhood? I know that I do. I couldn't tell you what I got for birthdays or Christmas' from 5 years ago but I can remember clearly going to the river, having a picnic, going to the park, seeing a movie or going for a drive with my family.

 This Christmas I have spent $0 on my kids. Gabby got a book that I got for free from online, Cody got a sword that was a gift to me years ago that he has wanted for years and Matty is going to get to help me make her present. Matt, Cody, Gabby and I are at my mom's and Matty is at Matt's sister's house. Mom is making cookies with the kids and they are having a blast with her. Matt is watching TV and I am typing away on the computer for a while. Later today we will do more together but for right now the kids are busy with Granny. Matty will be home on Thursday and we will continue to celebrate Christmas a bit more. This weekend mom is going to give the kids their things from her and we are going to have a big dinner. Once that is done I am hoping that Christmas will finally be over. LOL

Happy holidays!

~Aidan

Hi all,

 I have a little request for you if you have the time. I have been told that the link to my MySpace doesn't work and people can't get to my photos on there. What I am asking is if you will pay me a visit there and see if the link works for you and if you can acess my photos so I will know if they are full of it or not. Oh yea and the obvious please let me know if it works. LOL I am a dingbat today. Here's the link www.myspace.com/aidan_the_wicked_witch

 Ok so onto my usual ranting and raving like an idiot. LOL As everyone knows from reading this blog I have been having marital problems. It has been that way for years and has pretty much come to a head as of late. My husband and I have been at this point for a while and are simply making each other miserable.

 For a long time now I have been thinking that we would be better off apart rather than together and he has recently voiced the same opinion. As of now it is his opinion that after the holidays we should both move seperately. I can't argue with him there as I have been thinking it even if I didn't voice it.

 My idea of marriage is that two people come together to become something better than they are apart and we don't seem to be able to do that. We are worse together than we ever have been as idividuals. We don't exactly make eachother happy either. This isn't to say things are definately over between us but I do agree that some time apart wouldn't hurt.

 I'm not looking for sympathy. I'm really not hurt by this. The thing that will hurt me will be the kids reaction to it but it is far better than he and I staying together and being miserable. The kids know we aren't happy and they are happier when he and I are with them alone instead of me, him and them. I know that they won't really understand or like it and it will be an adjustment for them but I am confident that regardless of what happens they will be ok.

 Matt says he will probably stay with his sister or his mother untill he gets himself together and that he wants to see the kids as much as he can. His suggestion to me was everyother weekend. I am hopefull that we can do this like two adults instead of falling into the nastiness I see so often in couples. Keep your fingers crossed for me.

Thanks,

Aidan

BTW Please let me know if you get time to try that link and if it works! Thanks!!!

 Is it really December? I know that is what my calendar says but I'm not believing it. It was bad enough that at Thanksgiving I was running around in a sleveless dress and was warm enough to go for a walk like that but here it is December and I have had all the windows open and the doors too. What gives?

 I'm a very cold natured person so it's not that I'm complaining that much. True we live in the south and it doesn't get really cold but to be this warm is still strange. I saw on the news that cold weather is coming later on in the weekend but damn! I'm always cool even in the summer and here I am with my Christmas tree up and sweating while I mop. LOL

 ~Aidan

 Do I really believe that? Oh hell who knows....

 At any rate on the 10th Jackie and Justin moved out. I had a feeling that it wouldn't last long but I didn't give voice to that because it's just what it is and nothing more.

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 There is a girl that...

Gives till it hurts and still keeps giving, sits by the phone to wait on calls that never comes, listens to promises that are always broken, rearanges her life for friends, always gets left in the dust, expects her family to get along, wants for more than she'll ever get, deserves better from people, puts herself through bullshit in order to help others, wants to be drama free, always tries to think before she speaks, puts herself last in line for all things, and then routinely gets shit on by the very people that she does things for. Oh and let us not forget that when she shows a flaw or does something stupid nobody will let it go or let her live it down even when they are doing the very same thing.

 Well, this girl........

Is sick and fucking tired of getting taken advantage of and getting left behind, is pissed off, is going to get more or leave these people behind, is going to look out for herself and her kids and say screw everybody else. No more being a doormat or a yo-yo!

 This girl thinks........

GROW THE FUCK UP!!!! Get along or get gone, do what I say or get out of my way, be there 100% or not at all, if you can't be part of the solution then you are part of the problem, people in glass houses shouldn't throw stones, the he said she said bullshit needs to stop, people should learn not to make someone else's problem their problem, stop making excuses for what you do or how you feel.

 This girl is gonna........

Do what she wants and do it when she wants, look out for #1 for a damn change, be the bitch she was meant to be, tell you the 100% truth so don't ask if you don't want to know.

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 Yep I have had a bad lifetime. LOL Sorry if anybody gets their feelings hurt or thinks I'm talking about them. Truth be told if you think I'm talking about you there is probably some guilt there so I more than likely am talking about you. Don't ask if you don't want to know.

Love and Happy Days,

Aidan

   Ok so it has been forever since I have actually posted much of anything and I decided that I would start again now. Although I have moved most of my energy onto Myspace, I was missing my Bravenet blog. Anytime you want you can visit me on MySpace at http://www.myspace.com/aidan_the_wicked_witch and I will probably get back to you quicker than on here. At any rate that is where all my pictures and the like have been going. So now onto my rant for the day.

   An update on the ever missing Lawry is much overdue so here it is. Go ahead and gasp while you read. Lawry is engaged and pregnant with a little boy. She is due on January 21, 2008. Lawry and her fiancé have been together about as long as she has been pregnant and no I’m not going to venture my opinion into any of that. She moved with Steve and I don’t hear from her much anymore. Just my own personal gripe here but since she moved off with him it has been time for her to forget her friend that stood by her through all her bullshit. Ok end of gripe. I am terribly happy for her if she is truly happy. That fact hasn’t been proven to me as of yet though. The baby is healthy and so is she as far as I know so that is what is really important.